God I just want this dull ache inside me to go away. I want to stop caring what your doing, if your really happy, if you miss me. I don't want to wonder if you have dreams about me or if you still think this was worth it. I don't want to be obsessed with you anymore, I don't want to care whether or not your new life works out for you.
And just when it starts to heal, I pick at the wound again.
I want to be whole again, I wish desperately I could give my all to Paul, but as much as I hate it, part of me is still with you and I don't know how to get it back.
I have this awful fear that I will forever be this damaged thing, never completely whole.
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